Sunday, July 26, 2009
after straight 1 week of working without any off day, finally my off day is coming!!! after sun... but the sad thing is agnes bday is on tues so they having a eating session... then they ask me to fry the pork cutlet... but i scare i cant wake up... so still considering...
ytd was so boring at work... so i took out my phone and scanning through my phone book... then i realise alot of friends have nt been contacting them for very long... so send a sms to them... some replied and shuyi came to look for me oso... quite some time nv see her liao... the last time was supper wif her and dap at rui chun...
then at night was waiting for 阿克特 to finsih work cos going to lagoon... received a call fr victor and talked to him for some time abt our recent life... seeing shuyi and talking to him reminds me of our sec sch life... so realxing and nothing much to worry abt.... not like now... lol...
now time to say thank you again... hahaha... mr 阿克特... pei me to take the longer jounery bus when he have a shorter bus to take...
didnt really eat much today... dun have much appetite... but now im hungry... i only had 1 bread, half a curry puff and half pack of chicken rice for the whole day... maybe is becos of my ulcer... it seems to be very swollen and it hurt so much...
.:[*shuping*]:. 12:51 AM
Monday, July 20, 2009
my blog is going to have its 400th post!!! hahaha...
hai... dun feel good this few days... juz feel sian... everyday work, work and more work... so many things piled up and not done yet... tml im going to guai guai sit at my desk and finish everything... this is my resolution for tml.... hahaha... tml im going to go office then settle my paper work... give it to the HR ppl... then im coming back down to the bank sit on my chair and get stuck to it... today is already the 20th and i have only done my acc until the 8th... wad the... so many weeks not done yet... see my table oso sian... so many things to do so juz cant finsih it... my target tml is to do until the best 19... if not i will need to bring home and do...
the last few weeks juz dun find myself productive... too many things to handle at 1 shot and i really think im inexperience... still alot for me to learn... juz this and the planning of schedule can kill me... every month schedule have to change for 20 over times.... juz sick and tired... always here cannot work there cannot work... hai...
sort of miss my sch life... not happy dun go sch... then can have alot of time to slack... now... NO... no time for slacking... hai... different stage of life... but its so tiring... im really sorry i cannot do well in the things im handling... i really cannot handle so much things at 1 time... i will loss my concentration...
juz had a mini celebration for lilian and agnes's bday... dinner then ktv wif bear, ahmei and akete... lol.. had fun but in the end... hai... dun wan to mention it... anyway its juz life.... wad we can do is juz accept it... no way u can change anything... but maybe u can change urself to be more postive...
suddenly feel i very negative this few weeks... always looking on the dark side of life... i dunnoe how long more can i take it... maybe at the end of the race of my life is depression... see so negative... hai... wad to do...
LIFE!!! Live
In
Fear
Eternally...
.:[*shuping*]:. 1:28 AM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
u r born alone... u will die alone... so eventually ur life will be alone oso...
alot of things have been happening during work... and it quite of trigger some feeling in me... there are alot of things i dun understand... and i dunnoe how to understand... or i dun wan to understand...
friends, family, work... without thinking this is the ranking i have when i wan to type this 3 things... friends in first place then family then work... but maybe the problem lies in me lah... i really dunnoe how to communicate wif ppl... i do have friends... but i dunnoe if they really treat me as their true friends or wad... something it can be very sad... or shld i say pathetic... frankly i dunnoe how to put my feeling into words... nor do i know how to say it out... i juz feel very lonely at times... or maybe most of the time... i lack of talking skill... i dunnoe how to talk... and dunnoe when to talk wad... and always trying to please ppl... could this be the cause of the problem???4get it... dunnoe how to express... though life sux but it still have to go on... im trying my best to be a better person... pls give me a chance and i can do it...
.:[*shuping*]:. 1:24 AM
Monday, July 06, 2009
finished my 3 days mc... but i only used 2 days... ytd i went back to work and did alot of things... settled all the money and tried to finish my acc... but still unable to finish...
ytd morning at work was so busy... cos there is only 3 of us working... but luckily the sits were all taken up at aorund 815... but we have much free time... but when we were busy, the phone kept ringing... ppl keep asking abt the free cruise thingy... so irriating... was too busy so i asked them to call after 10 plus... not in the mood of slowly talking to them... then after work went to pick up bear's dog... his so cute... they haven think of a name for him yet... ol... but he so cute... so cute tt i wanted to have 1 myself too... but my parents wont allow... lol...
.:[*shuping*]:. 2:27 PM
Sunday, July 05, 2009
hai.. was sick for this week... the whole week... lol... think it happen on wed... felt cold tt day and was already sneezeing and coughing... think at tt time i already having fever... then didnt really care... same thing happen for thurs... but still drag myself to work and i still can eat normally... then until fri agnes asked to rest at home then i went to see doc... then i realise tt im having fever for the past 2 days... and yet i dun feel anything... 37.8 at tt point of time... and my doc gave me 3 days mc... fri,sat and sun... mon is my off day... so i can rest for the whole 4 days... hahaha... shiok... but im going to work tml... workaholic... lol... not really lah... feel bad leaving my colleagues alone... so im going tml...
.:[*shuping*]:. 2:03 AM