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Wednesday, June 24, 2009
f*** its not the money im heart ache abt... its the meaning behind every single one... u think juz a sorry and money can pay back for all this... im sorry u are wrong... all is not accepted... wads the point of getting the money but now its all gone... money cannot buy everything... dun think u have money u can do wadever u wan and get over it... wait long long...
if u dun come to talk to me i wont get so hot... u throw all gone away and now a sorry and say u wan to give me money... and im so angry and dulan... f***... no point...
u juz dun understand the whole thing... now i understand y some ppl like to lock their room... even u are juz staying wif ur own family member... i juz feel now i cannot even trust my own parents... its juz the responsibility tt i need to carry out... nothing else...
sorry to say tt... u ppl spoilt it urself...
.:[*shuping*]:. 11:04 PM
i dunnoe wad is wrong wif me... have i done anything wrong??? i dunnoe... i know its not important things but its my fav... y do u have to do tt?? i am juz on impluse lah... but im juz too angry to think of anything... damn f***ing dulan and angry...
i dunnoe wad is wrong wif me... have i done anything wrong??? i dunnoe... i know its not important things but its my fav... y do u have to do tt?? i am juz on impluse lah... but im juz too angry to think of anything... damn f***ing dulan and angry...
i used to have such a big family... but now... it have shrinked... it all cost money to buy them... and oso time to collect them to let them become such a big family...
but think it the other way round... if they are human begin they will oso die 1 day and be gone by my side... so maybe i shld juz think tt they have die liao and leaving me alone in this world...
i know its ricicluos but... i dunnoe how to explain... i know alot wont understand... but hope someone can understand me...
rest in peace!!!
my dear ones.......
.:[*shuping*]:. 4:01 AM
its short week this week... juz had my off day and now my off day is coming again...
suddenly have this feeling again... ending my life... was walking wif lilian juz now to check something then seeing ppl going into the gate to take ferry... then this thought came to my mind... i have taken ferry, plane and been to taiwan already... so i can go and die without any regrets... this maybe signs and symptoms of depression... but i juz cant stop myself fr this kind of feeling... i tried to.. tried very hard... but it juz always surrounding me... can u pls go away fr me!!! i hate u!!!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
its short week this week... juz had my off day and now my off day is coming again...
suddenly have this feeling again... ending my life... was walking wif lilian juz now to check something then seeing ppl going into the gate to take ferry... then this thought came to my mind... i have taken ferry, plane and been to taiwan already... so i can go and die without any regrets... this maybe signs and symptoms of depression... but i juz cant stop myself fr this kind of feeling... i tried to.. tried very hard... but it juz always surrounding me... can u pls go away fr me!!! i hate u!!!
life juz simply sux man...
its so simple and yet it sux...
SIGHZZZ!!!
.:[*shuping*]:. 7:12 PM
hai... had a super hectic day ytd... started work at 7 cos vessel is here so there is alot of ppl... then after tt went to the back to settle the accs... then still have to go to bank... cos nv do acc for like 3 to 4 days so it have piled up alot... so have to finish tt up... feel so uneasy if there is alot of things unfinish... so i always like to rush them out...
so many figures my eyes going blind oso... half way done wif the thing then another thing come up... have to key in the data for new members... abt 10 pages to be done... and tt have to be done on tt day cos we need to send a sms boardcast to all the members saying tt tanah merah is starting... when i switched to the member thing its already 3 plus... didnt even know time pass so fast... then finsihed wif the member then have to come out wif the message to send out... after which went out to vivo to have a stroll and oso to pass something to sir... and after agnes come back, we start to get busy wif the memo... have to think how to write and wad to write... hai... when we are done wif tt its already 6 plus... tts how fast time pass... then after settling everything, she went back then i stayed back wif the accs... until 7 plus then i completely finish it... hai... so a long day...
today abt the same... thought we could go to tanah merah and set up our things but suddenly something crop up... and we have to spent the time on cctv juz to catch an action by 1 of them... but luckily it is found and we are not guilty... hee... and at tt time, i still haven count money and go to the bank... only until 3 plus then everything is done and i have the time to go to the bank... thought we can go there after settling but realise tt the counter there already close... so we can only go there only fri...
realise something today... no matter how real u are... juz put on a stupid, friendly and helpful face... ppl wont bother abt the real in u but the fake in u... fr tml onwards, this only apply to those at my work... i juz put on a stupid, friendly and helpful face to face them... mayeb this way then they will appreciate it more...
i juz think tt im juz a too real person... all my feeling is all writen on my face... 1 look and u can know how im feeling... to my friends i can be real... but to my work place ppl, i have to put on a mask... think the first thing i will look forward is to finish work and remove my mask and be myself...
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
hai... had a super hectic day ytd... started work at 7 cos vessel is here so there is alot of ppl... then after tt went to the back to settle the accs... then still have to go to bank... cos nv do acc for like 3 to 4 days so it have piled up alot... so have to finish tt up... feel so uneasy if there is alot of things unfinish... so i always like to rush them out...
so many figures my eyes going blind oso... half way done wif the thing then another thing come up... have to key in the data for new members... abt 10 pages to be done... and tt have to be done on tt day cos we need to send a sms boardcast to all the members saying tt tanah merah is starting... when i switched to the member thing its already 3 plus... didnt even know time pass so fast... then finsihed wif the member then have to come out wif the message to send out... after which went out to vivo to have a stroll and oso to pass something to sir... and after agnes come back, we start to get busy wif the memo... have to think how to write and wad to write... hai... when we are done wif tt its already 6 plus... tts how fast time pass... then after settling everything, she went back then i stayed back wif the accs... until 7 plus then i completely finish it... hai... so a long day...
today abt the same... thought we could go to tanah merah and set up our things but suddenly something crop up... and we have to spent the time on cctv juz to catch an action by 1 of them... but luckily it is found and we are not guilty... hee... and at tt time, i still haven count money and go to the bank... only until 3 plus then everything is done and i have the time to go to the bank... thought we can go there after settling but realise tt the counter there already close... so we can only go there only fri...
realise something today... no matter how real u are... juz put on a stupid, friendly and helpful face... ppl wont bother abt the real in u but the fake in u... fr tml onwards, this only apply to those at my work... i juz put on a stupid, friendly and helpful face to face them... mayeb this way then they will appreciate it more...
i juz think tt im juz a too real person... all my feeling is all writen on my face... 1 look and u can know how im feeling... to my friends i can be real... but to my work place ppl, i have to put on a mask... think the first thing i will look forward is to finish work and remove my mask and be myself...
.:[*shuping*]:. 11:05 PM
its my off day today!!! once a week... muz really treasure it... hahaha... slpet last night at 2 am... until this afternoon 1 something got a call fr my sis cos i wanted to go CDC to register for my final theory... but i was so tired and lazy so i got back to slp... until 3... then slack in my bed and fall aslp again... then until 4 something 5 then i got up to get something to eat... after eating then watched tv until 6 something then i fall aslp again... hahah... until juz now 1030 then i woke up to bath and asked my sis to tabao food for me... so hungry... juz now i feel so fresh... and i got a bit slpy again... but i juz eaten so i cant slp yet... lol...
another week of work ahead... and tanah merah is starting this coming sat... sian... every full timer have to go there for 1 week... heng its juz for 1 week... if not i think we will juz die there... no entertianment... even the food there is not nice... heard fr them... lol... and going there is a torture... have to change bus at interchange... and if u miss the bus have ti wait for another half an hr... so ma fan... hai...
so wan to get my licsence asap so i can drive to work and here and there... maybe this week or next week when i have the free time i will go dwn... hopefully its not too ex and i can afford it for now...
Monday, June 15, 2009
its my off day today!!! once a week... muz really treasure it... hahaha... slpet last night at 2 am... until this afternoon 1 something got a call fr my sis cos i wanted to go CDC to register for my final theory... but i was so tired and lazy so i got back to slp... until 3... then slack in my bed and fall aslp again... then until 4 something 5 then i got up to get something to eat... after eating then watched tv until 6 something then i fall aslp again... hahah... until juz now 1030 then i woke up to bath and asked my sis to tabao food for me... so hungry... juz now i feel so fresh... and i got a bit slpy again... but i juz eaten so i cant slp yet... lol...
another week of work ahead... and tanah merah is starting this coming sat... sian... every full timer have to go there for 1 week... heng its juz for 1 week... if not i think we will juz die there... no entertianment... even the food there is not nice... heard fr them... lol... and going there is a torture... have to change bus at interchange... and if u miss the bus have ti wait for another half an hr... so ma fan... hai...
so wan to get my licsence asap so i can drive to work and here and there... maybe this week or next week when i have the free time i will go dwn... hopefully its not too ex and i can afford it for now...
.:[*shuping*]:. 11:37 PM
off day ytd so went to the IT fair... planned to get a mini... cos the old one really cannot make it liao... only left 3/4 of the screen can see... sad... anyway got a new one liao... abit not use to it... cos its a small screen... only 10.2 inch... lol... but its so handy... can bring it anywhere...
Saturday, June 13, 2009
off day ytd so went to the IT fair... planned to get a mini... cos the old one really cannot make it liao... only left 3/4 of the screen can see... sad... anyway got a new one liao... abit not use to it... cos its a small screen... only 10.2 inch... lol... but its so handy... can bring it anywhere...
.:[*shuping*]:. 2:58 AM
its been a long time since i last come and blog... so busy wif work... everyday is work and slp... more and more work pile up to do... but fortunaly i am able to and master the work fast and finish it.. hhahaha.. how clever of me... got alot of photo and video haven upload yet... everytime go home so lazy to do things... wan to play online game the connection oso very slow.. so sian... then everytime wait until fall aslp... hahaha...
this morning is the worst... dunnoe how i slp last night... and cannot remember if i got off tv and lappy... then nv set alarm... luckily my sis need to wake up early and got waken up by her alarm clock.. if not i will be late again... juz in time to take a cab here...
talking abt laptop... IT fair is coming so i will be going there to see got any cheap and good one need to replace my old one le.. its really going to have a black screen very very soon... everyday on is like more black parts... hai... need to get money fr my stupid mother... dunnoe if she will sponsor me... but i dun care... i muz have it.. lol...
now slacking in ofice.. later go home i wan to watch vcd and hopefuly i dun fall aslp again... hahaha..
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
its been a long time since i last come and blog... so busy wif work... everyday is work and slp... more and more work pile up to do... but fortunaly i am able to and master the work fast and finish it.. hhahaha.. how clever of me... got alot of photo and video haven upload yet... everytime go home so lazy to do things... wan to play online game the connection oso very slow.. so sian... then everytime wait until fall aslp... hahaha...
this morning is the worst... dunnoe how i slp last night... and cannot remember if i got off tv and lappy... then nv set alarm... luckily my sis need to wake up early and got waken up by her alarm clock.. if not i will be late again... juz in time to take a cab here...
talking abt laptop... IT fair is coming so i will be going there to see got any cheap and good one need to replace my old one le.. its really going to have a black screen very very soon... everyday on is like more black parts... hai... need to get money fr my stupid mother... dunnoe if she will sponsor me... but i dun care... i muz have it.. lol...
now slacking in ofice.. later go home i wan to watch vcd and hopefuly i dun fall aslp again... hahaha..
.:[*shuping*]:. 6:24 PM