Friday, May 02, 2008
sometimes i feel im such a failure in life... there's so many things i cannot do well and cannot handle well...
i cant handle my relationship wif family and friends and studies... i dun even have a chance to handle BGR....
wif family... communication break down... infact no communication at all except for money issue and not staying at home issue... the rest of the things is not an issue... i really envy those whose parents really look and talk to their children... tt time was at huixian's house playing mahjong... and i got touched by wad her father did... so caring and xin fu...hai... its the total opposite of wad is happening in my family...
wif friends... i dunnoe wad happen... its juz tt i dunnoe y i dun seems to have friends around when i needed them... but im there for my friends when things happen... i dare not say all the times cos i myself oso will have problems... i dun seems to be able to find company when i need... i dun seems to have someone to talk my hearts out... there's always some things which i cant say out... maybe everyone have this part of problems in tt heart... but i juz wan to say out... i do have close friends which i always hang out wif... mark... sometimes i really think thanks to him... if not i will be staying home every single day... he made my life abit colourful... lol... seems to have drifted fr joycelyn cos she's always busy wif her work and her bf... and im always busy wif my work... when she's free im not... when im free she's not... hai...
and im oso used to disappointment... can arrange things nicely and things happen... so used to it tt i always think negatively... i say im used to it but actually im not... i get angry and sad when it happens... so im not actually totally immune to it...
wif studies... ppl took 3 yrs to complete poly... im taking 4... think its becos of the tight education my mother gave me and suddenly a loose one... this make me wans to play truant... hai... i know im someone hu can do very well in work if i wan to... but now i dun have the mood to...
wif BGR... nothing to say... juz stupid... juz very stupid... know it wont come to any good end... but wans to cling on it...
im juz a failure in life... through i still have a long life ahead... hope i can handle it well...
.:[*shuping*]:. 7:33 PM