Wednesday, May 31, 2006
alot of questions is running through my mind.....
y am i living in this world??? y is it me??? y not other ppl??? how did i turn into like tt??? y will i meet all the ppl tt i am meeting now??? where's my mr right??? am i really a werid person??? y do i show my feelings on my face?? blah blah blah... there's more questions in my mind... but dunnoe how to write it out... the mixed feeling is back again... y????????? i really dun understand.... do i really dun bear to leave??? i think so... its like finally after so many things have past, then at last have some bond then leave again... then i might as well not to meet them... rite??? at least there wont be this kind of feeling and maybe i will live happier??? or knowing them is a good thing as its like part and parcels of life??? no idea??? really nobody can give me a definite ans... but i believe tt everything is predestinated before u come into this life... but how do i know tt things happening now is in the right track??? shld i continue this friendship? or shld i stop seeing them now?? questions, questions and MORE questions.... if u're reading this entry and know the ans to my questions, pls leave me a tag... cos i am really really really troubled now...
okie... now stop begin in questions land and go back to real life... there's always something tt we are doing and dun wan u to know... we are going this extra mile becos we dun wan u all to worry so much... but some ppl dun really know wad we are doing now... and they wan things to be done their way... we are not asking for more but juz hope tt we can get back wad we give... not trying to get reward but at least somethings tt can pleased us... i know we shld not ask for reward as we are willing to help.. but this is human heart wad... u tend to hope to have a little little bit of reward... as to keep us going... but until now,........ hai.... so dunnoe
is it a mistake to know them??? if u really to ask me to leave now, i really dun have the heart to do tt... though its juz a month more relationship, but to me, it seems to be like a few months... time is passing so fast yet so slow... sorry for the very emotional entry... but this is wad is really in my heart now... its like knot... hope tt someone can help to untie this knot and i can more happier...
so friends, if i dun talk or smile or look sad on my face, pls understand... thanx alot!!!!
.:[*shuping*]:. 12:30 AM